I understand now how people could become addicted to drugs or alcohol. I swing so wildly between hope and despair. I really, really, really wanted to just stop at a bar today and drink just to feel nothing.

I am a complete mess today after feeling very good about things yesterday.

Me: 47, Ds 17-13, D final 6-11
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