I hear you RSG. Had my visit with IC this am and was gung ho about being ok. Fast forward to the drive home from work and I found my mind wandering to the weekend she went to see OM.
No clue where that came from but it definitely hurt. Been a week or so since something weighed on me like that. Back in an ok place now but it's tough. The randomness of thoughts is what kills me.
Hang in there brother, definitely not alone!
Me39 M11 : T13 D9 BD 5/31/16 In House S until 6/21/17 Divorced 10/5/18