I feel the same way about waking up in the early morning hours....that is when I feel my worst...I keep thinking I am having a bad dream. Keep reading and posting as this site so that others can give you input....get out there and GAL to take your mind off the sitch...can you take your kids with you doing the outdoor things?
Hang in there
W:42 M:48 T:9 yrs M:1yr BD: Feb 2016 EA Confirmed: Feb 2016/PA July 2016 D: Feb 2017