Today was the second BD with WW About the A? I could not take it anymore, could not take knowing. Could no longer tolerate being lied to. While i am not flipping with joy, it's out there and I feel truly relieved. I feel tired actually, I feel really really tired. She was leveled, she was crying, she was sorry and apologetic in a way she was not on the 1st BD. I was heard, I was not angry, I was not fearful, I did not loose my cool. My god, I think I am breathing again. I don't know what comes next, D did not come up. I know I keep on the GAL. I'm done with the 180 though. There is nothing more to 180. She already knows I have changed, she already sees who I am. She knows I meant what I said. And I am letting her go. This is going to take more time, but I am on that road now, more than I have felt before. It is up to me to stay this way and I will stay well. If she wants to be a part of it, well I will check my own pulse from here on out.
You all have been extremely supportive. I will see what actions speak next. I can only control me.
"There is no more important fight than the one for ourselves. Keep on winning." Ginger1, Read her newbies. BD: Feb '16 D: Mar '17 Piecing: Putting the self back together was my piecing. S6
