I just got off a call with a friend that was with me during this journey since Feb and i told her that i'm in the best place that I have ever been in my entire life. She says, I finally believe you - and i've been saying it to her for 4 weeks now.
The entire weight of this ordeal has been lifted off with the divorce. I never gave my XWW the chance to change her mind. Not even a second chance to take me down the road to despair.
Here's the lyrics from George Micheals song, Spinning the wheel, if you need motivation on what you want to do... The last few lines are the best!
Five o'clock in the morning You ain't home I can't help thinking that's strange Baby I just want you to know I won't go through it again Yes, those clouds are closing in
And I will not accept this as a part of my life I will not live in fear Of what may be And the lessons I have learned I would rather be alone than watch you Spinning that wheel for me
You've got a thing about danger Ain't you getting what you want from me You've got a thing about strangers Baby that's what we used to be You've got a thing about danger baby I guess the hungry just can't see One of these days You're gonna bring some home to me
Six o'clock in the morning You ain't home I can't help thinking that's strange It seems that everybody takes their chances These days Oh yeah we're standing in the rain
And I will not accept this as part of my life
How can you love me When you are playing with my life You say give me time and I'll do better I swear Give me time and I'll lead you back to despair And I don't want to go back there
Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.
