Maybell, I think you need to let go and sink into MyGuy just a little more. Send the selfie, text him if you feel like it. Tell him you are feeling down, see how he responds. Allow him to be concerned for you. You've been with him for months now, he's been consistent and patient with you. Let that wall down just a little more. Be vulnerable. (Go back and review your Brene Brown lessons.......) It's time.