WW confused about the future.

[excile101]

Sure Sandi2, I'll try and post more. I have just been trying to block it all out to be honest. I have thrown myself into my work.

I feel so frustrated by the whole situation I don't know what I should next. I am setting myself in my rented home and think about other things. I see the kids regularly on agreed days but have minimal face to face contact with my W except on days I see the girls. My W is happy to hug me, chat and spend time at my new place but then leaves until she sends me photos of the girls or asks how I am. Jeez..she even takes deliveries for me when I am at work as I leave her the key. It has become more of a brother/sister relationship where she tells me that she cares about me thinks of me fondly!

She asks me if I have had any visitors and takes more of an interest in my life and where I may be. It's all very civilised and pleasant apart from the problem that it is all tearing me apart as I just don't know what she really wants.

I feel so conflicted. One minute I am wondering if I should just go and find someone else and then I feel guilty because my W may want to reconcile and I don't want to let the girls down and change the arrangements which are keeping some kind of "normality" for the kids. My hands are tied.

It feels like there needs to be a serious shake up to change the dynamics here. The problem is I'm worried that I'll jeopardise any hopes for the future or upset the children. I also have no idea as to what to next.