Today is hard. Even after all the distractions. I [censored] love her but i have to cast her out my heart and mind.
I feel for my boy and it breaks my heart when he tears up and asks "wheres Mummy?". I cant answer him. I just say "its okay i love you".
If it was just me i'd go dark and cast it all away but i cant. I have to deal with my Son's broken heart too. That hurts me more than anything. I have to stop myself from thinking about it when im out in public lest the tears come forth.
Sorry rant.
As for this rant, feel your emotions, cry like there's no tomorrow - but remember that there is a tomorrow... mmmhhhh.
Do you want your son remembering his father on his knees crying for a woman that does not love him, or a strong confident man that will not accept the hand that he was dealt, but will forge his own path in life.
Do not cry for her, she does not cry for you. Do not cry for your son, he will have his own tears.
Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.
