I think it finally just clicked--the fact that we are the lucky ones to be the LBS rather than the WS. I know we say it and hear it all of the time. We get to be the ones who grow while they stay stuck. But I really think I finally got to the point where I believe it. And I feel grateful to be the LBS rather than the WS (although I don't think I am the type of person who ever could be a WS).
As awful as it is to be in this position, being the ones left standing stripped, alone, and scared forces us to take on a new world view. To rise to the occasion. To become better, stronger, more in tune with who we are and what our wants and needs are. We get to live in the moment. We get to have the world as a wide open door.
The WS doesn't get to do that. They packed up whatever they could to make the transition as smooth as possible for themselves. And in those bags they packed all of the baggage. They are bringing it all with them to the next doorstep. It hurts so much to be pushed out and replaced. But honestly I think being the replacement has got to suck big time. And the WS changes nothing.
Today is a good day. I feel lucky to be the LBs. I am free of the chains created by my M without having to feel ashamed of how I got freed. I love living in the moment. Today is one of those days that I feel my life is a blessing. I'm sure it will switch again at some point, but I am glad to be feeling this way tonight.
40s 2teens M14Y BD-10/12/13 rec-1/14 BD2-5/14 rec2-9/14 EA disc-10/14 4/15-BD 3 and triangulation ensues Served with D6/15 MS forced to leave7/15 D agreement signed 8/16 final 5/17
