Still not sure why I continue writing here. I'm just tired. I'm tired of crying myself to sleep at night. I'm tired of dreams involving her and OM or dreams when we were in love. I'm tired of waking up alone and going to sleep alone. I'm tired of saying goodby to my kids. I'm tired of the awkward hellos and goodbyes with my wife.

How long does this hell last? How long until she decides that she spent enough time "separated" that others will believe she did everything she could to save her marriage? It's hard to feel like I can move on when I'm waiting for her. Yeah, I can 180 and GAL but that doesn't help me heal and move forward when this huge decision looms overhead

M: Late 30s W:Late 30s
S: 4 D:2

Known: 19
Together:8
Married:5

ILYINILWY: 8/2015
EA: Confirmed 9/2015, Started 8/2015?
PA: No evidence, W Denies
D: Planned for Spring 2016