Depressed to WW

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So things have only seem to get worse. We are fully into the back and forth between the lawyers. She is pissed because I want 50/50 and she feels I don't deserve that. She is still going out at night with OM. At this point I feel she does it partly for him and partly to try and hurt me. I've gone to where I barely talk to her. Mostly text if anything and only about the kids. I don't look at her when I'm home. I ignore her as much as humanly possible. Her and her family continue to make comments to my kids more and more behind my back.

At this point I wish I never had married her. She's is no one I would associate with if it weren't for our past. I am trying my best to remain focused on going forward and not let her know when she gets to me. I wish I could sometimes do the mean things back to her that she is doing to me. Don't have it in me though. I hope I don't get through this and wish I took "shots" at her when I could have. But I know that's only a temporary satisfaction.