Maybell 39: I'm Too Old For This

[Maybell]

I left for my business trip on Saturday evening. Was feeling down because I'm the only one not bringing a partner. We got into it a little bit via text and he offered to call but I was already at the airport so we just texted the conversation. I hope it's not manipulative that he suggested I was actually anxious about the trip itself; I feel like I don't have great radar for recognizing manipulative tactics. (Though he drew attention to the idea that all three of my children "manipulate the he!! out of you" so for whatever that's worth).

But then it tumbled out of me that something awful had happened to a friend of mine, so he may understand me better than I give him credit for. And the awful thing that happened to her was something that could happen to me on this trip, and he immediately jumped into concern for my safety. And we still haven't said ILY but he did escalate the I like you to I like you a whole lot. So... Progress!!

Anyway I'm not happy with how this week is. I miss him. It's not game playing that I don't feel totally confident in reaching out to him too much, maybe because I was super aware that Mr. Fantastic didn't love hearing from me. (WHY did I fight for that marriage????)

I can't wait to back to My Guy. He sent me a selfie. I don't know when I'll see him next... Thoughts?