Episode 3 - The Divorce Awakens

[bodhi]

I think I'm at the point betterm arrived at a few weeks ago where I just don't give a sh1t anymore, and my communications are all over the place because I've just been saying whatever I want. What does it matter. There's very slim chance I'm in that 3% of people who's marriages can be saved. At least I've said what was in my heart.

qt, I relate to this sentiment so much. There's been so many times where I've felt like "Oh well, it's already over, might as well say what's on my mind." I was only saying these things because I figured it was already over. Unfortunately, early on in the separation that's actually what swayed my husband towards a divorce. I try and keep that in mind, that he said he was done but wasn't at one point. It helps me continue to keep a filter and prevents me from reaching out to him.

I still struggle with that a lot though. I've been debating all day sending him a message. I'm going to sit on it another week. Stay strong, we're all in this together.