Journaling a little... 4 days into Vacation with D, I didn't realise how much of an emotional roller coaster this would be for me... hanging with family is nice but it feels as if one important part of our family unit is missing and seeing the love around me only makes me miss her more.

The homily at Church this past Sunday felt like the pastor was talking directly to me... he preached on the power of prayer and discernment and how we hear yes, then no, then patience... wow!

I haven't really spoken to her at all since travelling other than a few texts to me asking if she could call D.

My emotions have wandered from anger, to loneliness to frustration - wanting a quick end to my situation one way or another. (her back or some finality) This is truly one of the biggest challenges and tests I have ever undertook.

Me: 40 W: 45
T: 13, M: 11
1 D: 9

Suspect A 6/15
ILBINILWY 8/15, and 3/16
EA/PA Discovered 3/16
EA admitted 3/16
W Moved out 4/16
W opens R talk and says A over 1/17