Keeps getting worse, 180 not working

[Buxom]

Woke with lots of anxiety. Wish I could direct my brain while sleeping. As soon as I felt it and started to redirect my thoughts, I tried to get back to sleep only to wake later with it being worse. I dreamed a fabulous solution that made such sense but it faded on waking. Was likely useless anyway.

I'm doing very well with being unpredictable and not making contact. I haven't talked to WH since he hugged me goodbye Saturday afternoon. He has forwarded a couple of emails but not contact of substance. Was not sure whether to reply with thanks or not so I just left it. I'm staying away from Facebook and only texting my kids good morning and night. Forgot my phone cord so saving battery.
Today's book is on boundaries which will likely create more anxiety since I really let them slide and I am afraid to make things worse with WH. Ironically, I think my passivity and conflict avoidance bugs him, based on hints he's given lately. Also reading next chapter in DR. Too hot and humid to be out.
Colleen