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There will be ups and downs & probably alot of situations like this with your W for a while with the kids.

Don't get down on yourself as you are doing what you can.

Agree on the trust. Trust has been broken and it won't be repaired for a while if at all for you.

Keep going and focus on you and the kids. Sounds repititive but it will be fine! I am in the same boat and have ups and downs.

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Me-48
Spouse-WAW 52
Married for 10 years
D7
ILYBNILWY 7/15
Suspect EA/PA 12/15 No confirmation/denial
She files 1/2016
Working towards the Big D ...still in progress....