Out of in house S - On My Own (11)

[vise82]

Hey,

Had the boys for what seemed such a short time before I had to had them over to W.

S7 was sick the first day I had him, baby sitter looked after him he was under the weather, deemed to get better then was still sick. Saturday he was feeling better not 100% so I had them in the morning and we had a jam packed morning driving around to thrift stores where I donated some old stuff and peanut snack food store and ice cream and book stores.

It was drop off time. W notices he is still feeling a little sick and I thought it was all the food we ate. She says, I guess you have plans today, because she wanted to take him to a walk in clinic. I said he is fine, he has been getting better and made it sound like I did have plans. She was working towards asking me to look after S4 as she took S7 to the doctor.

I get a text later saying he has sever tonsillitis. She plays it up saying he was so close to his throat swelling and choking to death.

He was no where near that at that point, I just dropped him off and he seemed like he had a cold. Why would she play it up like that.

I feel terrible. Then I think that she is going to use this against me. I can just hear it: the oh he but him in danger and did not look after him , did not take him to see a doctor. But really there was nothing to suggest to take him to see one, he seemed to get better.

I feel like this is what she was waiting for, for me to make a mistake so she can use it against me.

She tells me on the phone after I talk to S7 that she will put his medicine in my fridge when she drops of the kids. I text her back later after I thought of it, Not to go in my fridge and not to go in my house, Just give it to the baby sitter as that is why she is there.

W did not reply.

I was just thinking that if she is in my house what if she sees something unsafe or that could be used against me. Not that there is but she was so pushy about showing how wrong I was with S7 health it made me think why.

Point being I cant trust her, I am not there when she drops off the kids to the baby sitter and W should not be entering my house. And she has been by accounts from my kids. Then she tells me she is going in my fridge. Its too much.

So I need to hit the reset button. Need to re-plan my plans. I think I am doing good I just need to regroup. I think W can sense I am slipping. I just hope she is not looking to take advantage of it and use it against me.

I need to shake it off and get a firm footing to stand tall again.