Are you still reading my threads? Skip to my post last night as it relates a bit to your frustration. It is my take on DBing and may make the point that Natus was trying to. You are on a fast moving roller coaster from what I read and you can slow it down and even get off while following MWD and the DB principles. Principles over feelings is my basic guide day to day. Feelings come and go, but good principles are the foundation and compass that will lead us through this most difficult journey.
Hang in there my friend you have put in some good work and have a ways to go, but you will make it through regardless of the outcome of the MR.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine