HI Wet, Yes, I am right next to you on the see saw of emotions ... I can only speak for myself, but I feel like I have to go through all of this ... feel this rejection, sadness, betrayal, anger, compassion, love, longing, rejection, depression .. in order to someday come out the other side. I think it's the folks who don't allow themselves to go through all of the various feelings that this hateful process brings up who end up stuck. I will not be stuck, so I find myself cycling through, and try to honor each feeling as it presents itself. Also, you're still recovering whether you realize it or not. Physical illness takes its own toll on our emotions.
Sending you hugs and prayers. xoxoxoxo
M 20+ T25+ S ~15.5 (BD) BD 4/6/15 D 12/23/16
"Someone I loved once gave me A box full of darkness. It took me years to understand, That this too, was a gift." ~ Mary Oliver
