I'm hoping someone who has begun piecing or has successfully pieced can help me.
My H left in over 8 months ago after telling me 2 months before that that he no longer loved me. It isn't the first time he's gone, he left for 4 months 9 years ago.
A couple of weekends ago he said he wants to "work it out" and get back together because, "after all this time he still cares about me, hates to see me cry and likes the family feel when we all go out (with our 2 children).
The trouble is I am now not sure that I want him back. He has put me through so much pain and I had finally started to feel at peace with living just me and my two children. When he comes round I just feel irritated and annoyed by him and with him. I don't know if this is how everyone feels. When he came back before I didn't feel like this, I was desperate to have him back, this time I'm not.
He wants us to go on holiday as a family and "take it from there". At the moment he comes round, sits in his armchair, tells S11 off constantly for silly little niggles (one of the reasons we argued so much before he left) and then announces he's going to bed (at his Dad's house down the road).
I am now back to not sleeping at night because I feel that I don't want this but I know that the children would love him to come home and so now I feel like the bad one for being unsure. Help!
