3 Months since she said i dont love you (3)

[Natus]

My IC expects me to be super nice, helpful, all around great guy for the xW.

Maybe you need to find another IC.

Where i am from there arnt any choices. Hes the only i know of in my whole state.

[Natus]

I really need to follow the 24hr rule. First week of separation and was feeling down driving to my parents house from work.

Separated from her i can deal. Separated from my son feels like a punishment. So on the way home i texted her.

"I hate i being away from my son. Im liking it alot less that im doing it to please your want to split up" and that lead to a bunch of texts back and forth.

Yah not great right. I should have waited til after gym to process my thoughts and feelings. Still doesnt help that i go to sleep alone and when i wake im not there to help my son get ready for school.

[Buxom]

What's the 24 hour rule?

Sorry to hear your pain. It truly [censored].

[Natus]

What's the 24 hour rule?

Sorry to hear your pain. It truly [censored].

Wait 24hr-48hrs instead of acting out immediately on your emotions.

Which i should have done, I felt less emotional after gym. So now im changing it to go to gym first before you talk rule

[Natus]

I noticed i only post about the doom and gloom.

Good stuff has happened but maybe i am just not paying attention to it.

So i feel great now that i dont feel guilty coming home late from gym. Noones waiting for me.

Got a little cactus plant for my office table,never been a green person before, i didnt know i could be so sentimental. Might have to hand in my Man Card.

GAL, going indoor rock climbing tonight with female work colleague.

Another female colleague has asked me to drive with her across state. Road trip.

Met a LBW whose into Harley Motorcycles. We just text chat and about motorcycles.

My only problem here is i have no dude frens. They are all married with kids.

[JksD]

I hear you about not having your s around. It's really tough to adjust, especially since we didnt sugn up for this.

But it's good that you're revving up your GAL.

Funny but I have the same problem as you. I don't have any dude friends as they're all married and unavailable. Well, for me, it means that I need to haul my butt and go looking for them.

What do you think you can do if you feel like having some bro- company?

[JksD]

Sign up... fat fingers. Must be a sign for me to ramp up my physical activities.

[Natus]

Damn just read C-Nut post about finally getting proof of ongoing A. That threw me for a loop and caused me to start wondering if She is in contact with OM even though she denies it.

Good thing i have a ladies self defense class to teach in 10 mins. That should take my mind off.

[Natus]

Today is hard. Even after all the distractions. I [censored] love her but i have to cast her out my heart and mind.

I feel for my boy and it breaks my heart when he tears up and asks "wheres Mummy?". I cant answer him. I just say "its okay i love you".

If it was just me i'd go dark and cast it all away but i cant. I have to deal with my Son's broken heart too. That hurts me more than anything. I have to stop myself from thinking about it when im out in public lest the tears come forth.

Sorry rant.

[Natus]

I need to work on my triggers.