Thanks Darkness, I agree I was in a content battle with what I thought was right. As my W wasn't having an affair even after reading the books and help from here I didn't know how to approach it. I thought if I pulled back and gave her no time I would push her to someone else. Turns out this happened anyway.
I am now at a point like so many on here where my W has now shown she has no respect for our marriage. And I have absoloutely no plans on hanging around being a back up plan. Everything I do now is for my D and there will be no "family" time anymore as we are no longer a family. The ball is well and truly in her court now I am and rock bottom and she can't hurt me anymore then she already has.
After 6 months from hell I have just found out I wasn't actually in hell just on my way there. Hard times
ME- 31 W-25 T-5 M-3 D2 ILYBNILWY and moved out - FEB16 W seeing someone else - JUL16