First post here...just starting to GAL and 180.

[Buxom]

I feel myself starting to weaken in the face of so much disconnection and withdrawal from WH. The little touch and go's are pretty much gone since his request four nights ago to rejoin me in mbr. I find it harder to concentrate and I feel like I wanna cave in. What a miserable feeling!! I know caving at this point will be counterproductive at this point but the silence and his absence most evenings is getting to me. I can look for small positive interactions and they are small. I am GALing well, it's just the lack of interaction and very little talking is excruciating to me. We used to have a very loving and passionate life in and out of bed. Now nothing. He's even stopped kissing me and I hate it. My IC today was not too helpful, she does not agree with all of the 180 and feels I may be manipulative with it. I guess he could take it that way, whose to know, but I have not gone into this to be manipulative. I only ever want to be authentic and genuine but I can't totally be that with the 180 not " allowing " the ily.
I hear him making plans with me for a movie this weekend and him wanting some plans for our week off first week of August. Don't believe but I want to! Hope [censored]!

I have my first phone session with DB tomorrow morning and I'm excited. I'm also nervous since there will be more me venting and explaining than real planning. Yup I'm impatient.