I don't know why I thought I could change someone, or if I thought about it at all, but I now know it's not possible, unless they want to change themselves.
Was talking to my IC about this and she wonders if I'd subconsciously started, and continued, this entire MR with W as a "project"... knowing she had so many problems coming into the relationship, being a rock for her in her hard times, even when I don't understand them, and trying to provide a means of escape from her past by letting things go and showing her the present and future could be so much better... she said it's not uncommon for people with my attitude, personality, etc, to take on extravagant tasks just to challenge themselves...
I guess I get bored easily and need something to keep me occupied, if that something to occupy me wasn't a person, in the past it had been some form of self-destructive behavior (drugs, gambling, partying, video games, etc)... In a way, maybe it was the other way around this whole time, and my W was the one that was really saving me, while I saw it through my own blind eyes as 'settling down to start my next chapter.'
