Losing control, I need to let go (3)

[KyleR]

Thanks guys, means a lot to have you stopping by with words of encouragement.

On a whole things have been better and I've felt much happier but last night has knocked me back a little bit.

I have my D5 this weekend and I'm already planning a trip to the zoo with her. As I said in an earlier post I've reconnected with some old friends and we're taking our daughters there on a little play date. I'm really looking forward to it.

On a side note I've finally started applying for other jobs instead of just talking about doing it.

[KyleR]

Thanks guys, means a lot to have you stopping by with words of encouragement.

On a whole things have been better and I've felt much happier but last night has knocked me back a little bit.

I have my D5 this weekend and I'm already planning a trip to the zoo with her. As I said in an earlier post I've reconnected with some old friends and we're taking our daughters there on a little play date. I'm really looking forward to it.

On a side note I've finally started applying for other jobs instead of just talking about doing it.

[KyleR]

After reading another thread on here it has hit home that it is my anniversary in 13 days.

It crossed my mind to send her a card or something along those lines but I quickly put a stop to those thoughts. I've booked the day off work as I don't think I am going to be in the best of moods.

Think I am going to plan to do something I've never done before on the day, try and make the date significant for a different reason.

[SH_]

Well done Kyle, with so many GAL things going and planned.
Enjoy your time with d5 this weekend.
I too look forward to some quality time with my d5 this weekend.

I love your plan to create a new memory on the significant date. Hope you share what the big plan is and how it goes for you.

[sandi2]

Think I am going to plan to do something I've never done before on the day, try and make the date significant for a different reason.

Great idea!

[KyleR]

Not posted in a few days, been spending some quality time with my D5.....Zoo today was great!

So turns out my activity for the day of my anniversary is sorted, I've got a job interview! Funny how things pan out.

[JksD]

Sounds great!

[KyleR]

Quick drop in to see how everyone is doing?

Things are moving along nicely this end. I feel completely detached from my W and no longer care what she is doing or saying.

I have cut contact with anyone that was feeding me information about my W, I've recognised that it was not helping me move forward with me life.

Interestingly this seems to have produced some kind of results with my W sending me longer, open ended text with regards to our children and she has also been asking my sister how I am doing etc.

Got an action packed weekend ahead of me, the highlight of which is catching up with some friends I've seen in 10 years.

Have a great weekend everyone.

[Coconut]

Kyle, nice to hear your doing well man... I was thinking of you yesterday, was wondering if you ever went hiking around the cliffs next to your house..

I'm glad to hear you've taken steps to distance yourself from constant updates about your wife, it will help you focus on you for awhile. But I don't think you should consider out of sight - out of mind as detached, you will likely be emotionally affected the next time something crazy happens with your W... But OOS-OOM will help you for now, allowing you to focus on you, to find your happiness. When you find your happiness, the next time you find your self emotionally charged because of an action of W, you'll know that you can and will return to your place of self happiness, that will help you find the indifference to your Ws actions that's known as detachment.

I'm glad to see how far you've come Kyle, your making great strides now, keep it up.

[PacLove]

Kyle

I like your idea for your anniversary, mine too is coming up in a few weeks and I'm torn on what to do. Was originally going to at least have a card ready (in case she has one) but what am I to be happy about right now or celebrate? the last year has been anything but.

I will likely need to go to work as I just took some time off but it will be busy and I've got a meeting in the evening so as to avoid the awkwardness. My D really wants us to spend it together though - that has been a tough pill for her to swallow.