Detachment and the end of limbo, sort of...

[Phoebe]

So... the trip to my other house didn't work out as planned. At all. I wrote all about it in that post that went up in digital flames, and I don't have the stomach to type it all out again quite yet.

Suffice it to say that it's been a difficult day, just one of those downward roller coaster rides. I saw my therapist again on an urgent basis and there was plenty to discuss. Can I just say that this doctor has gone so far above and beyond for me that it is crazy??? I sent him a text after midnight last night asking to see him again, and when I woke up at 9, he had already gotten gotten back to me with an appointment time. Every time I leave his office he reminds me to call if I need to, and he really means it. Twice now he has talked me though really difficult episodes, once was on a weekend.

I'll go into the details in my next post, but I know a lot more now than I did before, and none of it is good. I kind of felt numb all day, and not because I was upset by what I found, but more that I realized just what kind of person I am married to, and I had no idea.

I hope that everyone is doing well.