Have to keep making the changes

[ATPeace]

Ginger1

Thank you for your post I am struggling to come to terms with the fact that it is all over even me writing this is hard for me to write.

I try and move myself forwards however I still want to believe that if we live in the house together and things between us improve over time then she will believe and like my changes then her feelings towards me could change for the better I guess this is what I am hoping for.

You are right that I have to make myself happy and I am the only one that can do this yes I have been to see IC I have been to Relate marriage counselling on my own she would not go,

My emotional needs are far from being met where as she has many girl friends would would hug her when they meet and would be fully sympathetic but I have very few people I can talk to.

I miss the intamacy and this is something that I am craving so my choices live without emotional connection no hugs no kisses no holding each other or what ? I go looking for a date ? I do not want to do this I just do not feel ready so feel I have little choices other than to go without intamacy.

Some will say whatever will be will be ....go out have fun and see what happens if the opportunity arrises to connect with another female and this is what you want to happen then let it happen

Yours

Ghost