Hi Mia, I can understand your focus on your H and the scrutiny of some of the things that are happening. However, at some point (and we all get to this in our own time) it is freeing to let some of the interest in his life go...to not worry about what MIL may be doing or saying. To not worry about Dad's reaction about birthday stuff...

As much as you can (and I know this isn't easy) it does help to relax the grip on his life and live your own with an open heart as well as you can given all circumstances. I still think you are holding on tightly and in anger, and I do think the baby steps towards building a rich new life for ourselves and letting them be, working towards release and forgiveness are the best things we can do for ourselves.

What things are you doing for yourself and to move forwards positively without him at this point? Are you making some nice plans for you that bear no relation to him at all my friend?

Hope you are enjoying the heatwave :)xx

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We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus