Thank you NYGal. It is indeed terrible as nobody deserve to lose their life this way. Unfortunately this kind of things just make you realise how short life can be.
I don't post much here as nothing is really happening in my life, I do read others posts but feel I don't have any advice to offer as everyone seems to have at least some kind of interaction with their WAS, it's not my case. So to answer your question I don't think there is any possibility of reconciliation as I can feel and see by H's actions that it's over. I'm gradually accepting it and moving on with my life. This doesn't mean that I don't love him, and it only means that I'm not putting my life on hold for someone who doesn't love me.
Talking with friends are making me realise that everyone deserves to be happy even H. Maybe OW is better suited for him ( I'm truly starting to believe it), and that I have married the wrong man. Her and him have a lot more in common. The hurt is that H betrayed me when he should have left me.
Other than that kids are away abroad with H, so I have lined up some activities for me everyday. Now I'm leaving my love life to God, and let the future unfolds.
