Bonjour Rouky, Happy belated birthday. And I'm so sorry about what happened in Nice and all the terror your country and people have experienced. Best wishes.
Is there still a chance you and H might reconcile? If so, then I hope you can learn to trust again. It's not easy, and I find there is a bit of post-traumatic stress (PTSD) going on, but you can do it.
11/4/15 W revealed EA/2 months later became PA with co-worker Reconciling since late April 2016 Don't give up until it's time, then move on Be patient, strong and kind but never a doormat