WET it is normal to want to hurt the person that has hurt you. I had my fantasies also. But they go away after some time. Than you want the best for them especially if you have children. So don't dwell on those thoughts cause that's all they are,thoughts. It is part of the healing. Look up the grievance process by Kubler Ross. It may help you understand a little better.
You said that everyone seems to be doing better but you. You don't really know that. I thought the same about me at the time. Remember that the WAS build a facade of happiness for the world to see. That is all it is.
Grieve my friend. Feel what you are feeling. Better days are coming....
M 53 D 20 Separated 6/22/11 moved out 10/24 Together 26 yrs Married 16 W Filed for D 7/21/11 Served 9/6/11 D final 8/28/12
“Failure is not fatal, but failure to change might be.”
