Thanks for stopping by AJ (and everyone else last week). I've realized quite a few things lately and think talking to a IC might help me again. I've told my family some of what's going on, I try not to say too much but I guess they need to know a little with custody and all but now I have to deal with their reactions (not responses) as well. They're also hurt and shocked. They mean well but it's not what I need.
I realized I'm not acting consist because I'm cycling through emotions and so I'm not always calm either. I need to be more stable for myself, kids, and w in case she ever comes around. I don't want to just survive.
I got more pictures from w today. She texted she wouldn't be home until late tonight and that sil (the one that lived with us until bd) was visiting and I could call then or wait and call sil's phone tonight. I thanked her and let her know I was doing an inspection so I couldn't call until tonight. She kind of apologized. I told her it wasn't a problem and thanked her again. Then she sent me pictures of the kids from this weekend and told me how they shared their life jackets with some kids afraid to swim. I thanked her for the pics and commented on how great our kids are. Then she sent a longer text about our kids and d sharing it again for a blind girl without taking a turn for herself. I thanked her again for the pics tonight and got a short friendly reply. Her texts have been a lot nicer recently and she started using emojis again.
