Thanks cadet! Good reminders for me. IC talked about self care and we worked on distorted thinking. I do a lot more mind reading, fortune telling and magnification than I thought. Can't believe how far I slipped but at least I can see it know and we worked out how to counter them as I notice them come up. It's based on mindfulness so feel, accept, move on, ... "thoughts are not facts" and "my thoughts are not me". Fairly emotional now. I only seem able to cry in her office.
My self care today, as I type, is over an hour of watching big planes take off over my head. I think I'm up to 20 by now.
EDF, I appreciate the heads up and will be ready to not take things personally. It has hurt when he with draws or shares his plans, with no asking on my part, one day and then is MIA the next. My detaching has not been very good as I realized today the amount of denial I still carried. My eyes continue to open and my hurt deepens. I am not the woman I was and I don't know if I'd be friends with me like this.
Me54 WH48 S18 D16 M 22 T 24 EA-PA-EA 2011-2015 Separated 10/14 - 06/15 BD1 02/14 BD2 05/16 BD3 08/21/16 and began drinking again Working on me and liking me again
