Still here and need support 2

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SH: I do have ups and downs. Downs seem to be random but I tend to notice more after d7 has been with me a few days and leaves for WAW house. When I'm out and see other families it hurts because I want to be a family again but the reality of my situation speaks otherwise. Time seems to be the dominant factor. The more time that passes the sadness seems to be less frequent. I'm still having a difficult time motivating in the mornings...afternoons and evenings I seem to have more clarity and energy. One day/step at a time...

rich4j: nice to hear from you and that you follow my situation. It does help to know that we are not alone and have similar situations as others. I do try to keep things inside for the most part but I do slip at time...saying that this is WAW choice and not mine when d7 inquires. I leave it at that and probably shouldn't say anything but I want her to know I still have hope for the family reuniting. thanks for the support and I hope your move goes well. When WAW moved out it was difficult for me but I made sure to keep busy and not be around too much. Don't forget that you are not the bad guy...they made their choices no matter how much they try and justify or blame.
I have been trying my best to acknowledge my emotions/pain and then to let them pass without dwelling but like most everything easier said than done. I have to realize that God has a plan for me and this is my path and to appreciate and be grateful for all that I have.