Thank you Sotto. Your advice is very sound. I'm just getting home from sitting in a parking lot talking to H on my phone for three hours. I'm done focusing even a little on him. Done talking to him. Done even considering trying to convince him to come back. And done concerning myself with Bubbles or the fact that she is anything more than a symptom of H's problem.
After a stressful weekend (too much schoolwork) and some fun thrown in (comedy show, 10 mile hike, ran into some old friends), I capped it off with a visit to one of the ladies who works in H's office's house to hang by her pool. Then a few of her friends and another lady from the office came by. Boy did I get an earful about everyone's thoughts about Bubbles. I guess more people find the situation with H to be wrong than I thought (he convinced me that no one cared). I also found that I am missed by a lot of people.
H called me on the way back to set up a time on Saturday to talk financials. I was stupid. I asked if he was ever going to explain all of this to me. That started the whole ball rolling again. Same stories. Same "you didn't like me" and "I tried for years" (20 this time!). I asked him if he remembered anything good, did he miss anything about me (as it was all bad). At first he said he was lonely for someone, but not really me. Then he admitted he missed some things about me. Then he came up with one.
You're right, Sotto. It is pressure. I see nothing from him. Why am I persuing still? He is not interested in me at all, right now. Maybe never. He made me feel so dark...like every good, loving memory of us was false. His only thing he missed about me was when I went shopping and did a fashion show for him with the new clothes. ? That's it?
Anyway, I'm moving forward. Why waste anymore time or energy on someone who wants to run the other way as fast as they can? All my "hopefuls" and his "nice guy acts" are nothing.
M-51 H-54 2D-27 and 25 M-26 yrs Bombshell and IHS 7-29-15 He moved out 10-3-15 D filed 1-27-16 D final 10-27-16
