S had a hard time yesterday when it was time to go. He started crying and wouldn't talk then started hitting his face on the sliding door and yelled at d. I got him calmed down and he seemed to be okay once we got going. I told w he was having a hard time when we met half way but she acted like I was making it up. I guess she doesn't want to hear it. She didn't look good either, it's crazy how she can look like she's doing well then 10 years older a few days later or vice versa.
They went to step in laws this weekend and w sent me 11 pics of the kids hiking in the mountains (places we used to go) and was friendly in her texts today. Maybe it brought up memories for her being back there, the pics did for me. Usually I only get one or two pics of the kids from her.
Doesn't want to hear it? Doesn't want to hear how her choices are affecting the kids? Huh.
I think the idea of you going to counselling is the best idea ever. I'm in awe that you have the presence of mind to notice that you are holding it in. Know what? You are not crazy, which is good because your kids need you to be present and strong right now.
The pics are an odd one. I remember my ex sending me pics of the kids going places we went. We had traditions and places and oddly, the ex kept those up. Still does after all these years, from what the kids talk about. You're right, MLC is a strange beast indeed.
Keep your head up and in the game. It gets better in time. It's not always like this, my friend.
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
