Godwilling, good. Been in to the maternity hosp today for some bloods. The early days are always the worst. And I avoid telling people until that 12 week scan. This time round I find myself worried about baby as my health and wellbeing has kinda been in the back of my mind- now it's at the front. I text h to tell him my dr sent me to hosp for the vomitting, dr was worried I would be dehydrated- I'm not do everything in throwing down and back up- my body is using so that's good. H didn't message back, I kinda expected it but thought as it was to do with baby, I should tell him. That hasn't bothered me, as I had no expectation.
Being there was kinda bittersweet, on the one hand I was really excited, seeing all these babies and thinking I'm growing life and I'll have another has me really happy. But then there's all the reminders of him and us there with our first.
I didn't say that last night, I woke a few times in the night to see him watching me sleep. At one point I woke cause he had his hand on my face, like brushing my hair out of my eyes. So strange. So very strange
Me 26 H 25 M 4 T 5 Baby born 4/14 BD: 1/15 EA: 2/15 PA: 4/15 reconciling: 4/15 ILYBINILWY- 11/15 ILY-1/16 ILYBNILWY 4/16 ILY 6/16 ILYBINILWY 6/16 Baby due 3/17 BD 8/16
