I am at a weird stage in the grieving process of the death of my marriage. I want to hurt W - not physically, but emotionally.
I want to say insults to her, be judgmental and criticize her, and to make sure she understands how much she has hurt me. I want her to understand what a horrible person she is. I don't want to forgive her, I want God to make her life miserable and for God to throw some serious 'Wrath of God' cr@p into W and om's lives.
I know this is not healthy. I have been thru Divorce Care and know that I have to first start by being willing to forgive her. But there was something about W saying before the last mediation that she was going to reveal private things I told her from our marriage that makes me feel even more betrayed by her. And I want to get her back.
