Also the therapist told us to take this week and do a ton of soul searching, lists whatever we need to do and decide if we want to try to make our marriage work. Not necessarily get back together, but try to do some work. I'm deathly afraid that he's gonna come in on Thursday and say he doesn't, but I need to be prepared for that.

This might sound ridiculous, but how do you know if it's the right decision to try? How do I know that I miss him and I'm not just lonely? I tried to make pros and cons lists but they don't work. I can't put into words why I love him. Everything in me feels like I want to be with him but what if that's just me not wanting to be alone? Or me not wanting to see him with someone else? How do you truly know?


Me: 37
Husband: 35
Married 5 years, together 13
Daughter - 1
Bomb dropped - 12/28/2015
He's moving out (officially) - 4/15/2016
EA confirmed 6/1/16
PA confirmed 8/1/16