First post here...just starting to GAL and 180.

[Buxom]

Ok, thanks Sara.
When he returned home last year it was with the condition or understanding that I was the one and only in his life, not just the primary. And no booze or drinking.

I want to say I would want to be the one and only again before he comes back to mbr and that it doesn't work for me if he's having inappropriate contact with other women.

I don't want to cave in yet I do want it to work out!! I know these are expectations, I own that. I also do not want to scare him off. I guess I am a mess today despite lots of self care and hobbies today.