Yeah, definitely not going to give her the card and will try to avoid seeing her on that day. Already made plans to spend the day with a good friend.
Not sure what else to say. I was unpacking things in my apartment and it really amazes me how mundane, everyday things have memories attached to them. Books that we once read to each other in bed, a book I read on our honeymoon, books I received as gifts from her... it feels like a lifetime of great memories thrown away. I really don't know how people deal with these situations when they've known someone for even longer. Twenty years... maybe I'm wired differently, but that means something to me. Looking back, I see so many great memories and so few that were really what anyone would call bad.
Still, I'm feeling stronger and more able to detach, but it still hurts. I'm sure it will always hurt.
M: Late 30s W:Late 30s S: 4 D:2
Known: 19 Together:8 Married:5
ILYINILWY: 8/2015 EA: Confirmed 9/2015, Started 8/2015? PA: No evidence, W Denies D: Planned for Spring 2016
