So I have gone through a lot. The usual. The confusion, horror, pursuit, denial, fear etc. Not sure what the categories of grief are but I have lived them - I know. For years. Eggshells for years!!! I bet you have too!!! You all know the score. Now though I am starting to find peace. I think, or feel, that means I am finding me again. I am not linger the LBH that is scared. The brave, confident, kind, successful winner that I always was is slowly coming alive. If this is the only achievement I can take (rather than MR) I say it is fantastic - it's definitely enough. I am loving my own company again. Our MC said she saw anger in the WW (true), which she denied. In me she saw anxiety and a man that felt he was unlovable (I didn't understand at the time - but I did feel that). Trust me I now know what a catch I am (I don't mean to be big headed - I am not). But I now know I am handsome, kind, caring and really very successful. I am also loyal (fiercely - but not in your face) and incredible honest. So my point is.......how did I ever fall for her BS? Gas lighted I guess. It's brainwashing. I feel that this boils down to those that try to blow your light out to make their own light burn brighter. Why? Simply I think they can't make theirs burn bright alone. They feel worthless. Perhaps I contributed (definitely unintentionally-otherwise why would I have spent the last 3-4 years reading, doing courses etc to make 'it' work). So what now. Keep moving forwards. I can't wait. I will not stay in that vortex of pain ever again - bacause nobody will ever do that again. Okay, I will have set backs but no. I am done with this. Time to jog on - as me. Wishing you all he best.
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