Detachment and the end of limbo, sort of...

[Painter]

I tried to post this morning because I read your post first thing, but I kept getting an error message from the board.

I am SO sorry about your chickens! I know exactly how you feel because I did something similar once - my negligence cost some of them their lives and I felt like such a terrible person for a long time afterwards. It definitely played into my decision not to have chickens anymore, unless I lived in a farmhouse and could attach the coop to my house with a window between so I could look in on them.

I'm happy the rest made it through so far and that you know exactly how to take care of them and assess their condition. I hope they all pull through!

[BluWave]

(((Phoebe))) One of my goals today is to get caught up on your sitch. Very curious to read about this new L friend. ... And not surprised at all that your H and OW fell through--do these As ever end well!?! Such an inauthentic shameful life. Poor selfish fools! Sigh.

-Blu

[lfm]

Sorry to hear about your chickens Pheobe. It's bad enough dealing with everything we've got to deal with, let alone the loss of something like chickens that kind of become your family going out to take care of them everyday. Hopefully the 10 remaining are able to pull through.

Good thoughts going you way through the weekend!

[SH_]

My dear Phoebe. Not a good day yesterday and I am sorry to hear what happened.
In spite of the difficult situation I hope that you can feel a little less lonely knowing that I am with you in spirit and sending every bit of peaceful and positive energy that I can your way.
I wish I could be there to provide you with moral support and a helping hand with all of it.

Breath and take a break and be kind to yourself. I know that it is easy to get in the trap of blaming yourself when things like this happen, but please step back form that. Like the Ted Talk I shared in my thread about How to Stop Suffering. Try not to place meanings to why it happened or what will happen next. It was an event that happened, and dissolving the meaning will minimize the painful feelings.

(((((Phoebe)))))

[J5K]

Phoebe,

I am sorry to hear about your day yesterday. I am glad it was better today.

(((Phoebe)))

[Phoebe]

I want to thank all of you for your kind words and reassurances. It was a pretty rough night and morning, to say the least. I mostly felt numb, but I definitely was incredibly sad and down. I took Xanax after laying awake for a little while last night , and it helped me quite a lot. It's 2 am now, and as of 15 minutes ago, I still have 10 live birds. I remain quite concerned about two of them, but I'm also starting to become cautiously optimistic.

SH, Your virtual presence and positive thoughts are very welcome. I will go try to find the Tedtallk you mentioned.

Blu, yes my L-friend is a very curious part of my current saga. Her has certainly a source of comfort right now.

Ok. Falling asleep again oooops, dropped the phone. Ill take that as a hint to sleep! Good night everyone!

[Cherry]

Just catching up on your thread, I'm so pleased to see you've come on leaps and bounds in the last few weeks.
So sorry to hear about your chicks, nature can be cruel some times. I hope the injured ones pull through soon.

[SH_]

HiYa Phoebe!

Hope you had a better day. I got some more Ted Talks for ya when you are done with the ones I recently mentioned.

(((((Phoebe)))))

[Phoebe]

Hi Cherry! Nice to see you hereabouts again - I missed you. Thanks for the good wishes for my birdies.

Sorry, SH. I am behind on your thread. I've been a furniture moving machine for the last week, in addition to the whole chicken near-disaster, and I've been pretty much too tired to do much of anything at all. L-friend and I are still biking every day we're moving stuff, too, so there goes the last of my energy each day. I still have to get to the TED you mentioned above, but I will get there. i've just barely been home. I ought to be sleeping right now, as it's 3:30 am.

Moving starts again at noon tomorrow. Well, today, really. I htkn I'll push it off until 1.

In other news, I still have 10 chickens, as shocked as I am to be able to say that. When I got home Thursday night, I was pretty certain, based on the feather explosion zones all over the yard that I had lost my entire flock. Certainly the ones that had sustained injuries looked terrible, and that was all but maybe 3 of them. Today, though, I just checked on them at 3 am, and they look OK. (Poor girls get interrupted sleep with me as their owner.) Egg production is down to 4 eggs today from the stress of what happened to the. Still 4 eggs is impressive in animals that were just attacked.

One hen still has facial swelling that concerns me, and another happens to be broody and nearly naked after the attack, so she's hard to interpret, partially because she's spending all her time in a nest box. Certainly she gave a lot of feathers to the cause. Poor girl. Chickens are much tougher than I thought they are. It's been quite a lesson, in more ways than one.

I think I'm getting my plans to go to the out of state house to get my stuff ironed out. My Mom suggested (strongly) that a specific day would be best for her, and L-freind said that might work, so we shall see how it shakes out.

Sorry that I'm keeping my entries short and sweet this week. It's just been a bit crazy...

[SH_]

Sometimes busy and some good old fashion manual labor is just the medicine to maintain a great PMA and induce some sound sleep, right?!

(((((Phoebe)))))

Ahhh, your not that behind on my thread. You know me lately, I am posting infrequently due to my own busy and sleepiness at the end of the day.
Glad to hear you have some tough chicks there at your place. They kinda take after that one toughest chick I know, running the place.

Have a wonderful day my dear sweet Phoebe!!