Lost at the moment (2)

[lfm]

Trying not to mind read here, but know that's exactly what I'm doing. I'm going to type this out as more venting than anything. With that in mind, thanks for allowing me to do so here.

My W texted this morning if she could bring my three youngest for lunch today, which I happily accepted. It was a good lunch, lots of laughter, everyone being social, good eye contact between my wife and I as we were talking, so overall a good lunch. I walked them out to my W's car afterwords which I usually do. My wife in the past has given me a hug before getting in the car, but did not today, just said thanks and turned away. Can't possibly know why the change, but definitely hurts a bit.

On the flip side, my wife still wears her wedding ring, and seems to have really restricted her contact with the OM. She's not carrying her phone everywhere anymore and has been leaving it on her docking station in the evenings, but still guards it by taking it with her if she is walking outside or going into the bathroom to take a shower (I think to make sure I'm not trying to access it).

Anyway, just my venting for today. I'm not going to say anything or ask anything about it, still just trying to keep my distance at home, to be happy and confident and to be there for my kids if needed. Thanks for reading and Happy Friday!