Have I been making mistakes too long part 9

[tkdmme]

Just an update.

I have resisted the urge to call the W. it has been 5 days now and it feels like a month. We have talked about the kids. when I am picking them up and stuff like that but nothing about us. She has been ok to deal with.

My life is still a complete mess but im embracing the loneliness. Im allowing myself to feel the emotions without masking them with alcohol or other women. I don't understand why it has taken me this long to get tot this point but it has. Everyone on this site and in my personal life has told me that using alcohol or women or anything else to cope with the loss is a bad idea and only leads to more problems. Why didn't I take the advice? I coming out the other end of it and doing fine without it but I could have started the healing process sooner had I listened.

The life I was living was reckless for me and anyone around me at that time.