Our facebook status has been moved back to "re-officialdom" apparently. (is that a word). Anyways. She texted me last night and said how mad she is about how people act, and how people need to learn to stay out of other people's business, and blah blah blah. She told me what happened (she didn't "unmarry" but she just made everything on her "info" page private), she told me she changed it back to "married" and that she is going to take a break from facebook for a while. Sent me a screenshot of her "post" saying "I'm taking a break so private message me or text if you need anything"... I sent back "if you go to the account settings page, there is a "delete account" option, and I highly recommend it". She laughed and said not yet.
Since the crazy spell over the weekend, things have been friendly between me and W. She told me she wants to fire the L's and finish this out peacefully, with a mutual mediation attorney. I'm not really sure how I feel about that as she expects to get "half" of basically everything, and I'm not entirely sure I agree with that... okay, I'm certainly sure I do NOT agree with it. But besides that, things are friendly.
She randomly hinted two nights ago that there is no way she is changing her mind on the D. and it's "not because of you"... it's because she feels she needs the D in order to get her life back. She's on a soul-searching mission, and I totally understand that, as the last few years have been hell for her. (not just marriage, but life events galore). I asked her if she was serious when she said she's moving away, and noted I'm only asking because we have 4 animals we own together, and we will need to work something out if she moves away, as I will not be able to maintain them alone. She said there was no way she's moving away. and that we should share the dogs, and she wants the cats (thank you).
The comment that followed was something like "I may be delusional, but I envision our future after the D is final that we are still best friends. That you will come hang out at "my place" and spend some time on the couch hanging out with our cats or something. Is that weird? I don't know how, or why, but I am certain me and you will have a future together in some way or another".
I just responded, I would like to come see that cats, but I think you and I have different views of what our future entails. (I've already had a conversation with her about how after the D, it will take time before I even consider being "real friends" with her... outside of just a cordial friendly neighbor type.
3 weeks and counting. I'm certain this divorce is happening at this point. I'm okay with that, but the last week has been a little more emotional that I'd think it would've been in my stage of this. I think my work with IC still has me "feeling" what's going on, and that's just not something I'm used to in life. I'm not a "feeler", I'm a "doer"... so I guess it's good, in that I'm growing as a person, but it's hard too. I'm not hoping to reconcile anymore, even though my W hints that she wants the D, but wants to have a relationship with me later in life... literally, she has said this in many different ways, but we are both "okay" with the D actually happening. It's kind of a weird stage of this process... I'm not a patient person, but I don't like to rush things... This waiting period is rough.
