I am sorry you are feeling depressed:( Mine often comes with a life event too.
I used to be a conflict avoider. That's a part of the reason my marriage blew up in my face. I avoided all of our problems hoping they would go away. So I have learned that conflict will always be met at one point or another, and it's better to handle when we are in a clearer state of mind and before it snowballs.
I totally understand the fear. Since I moved out of my parents home when I was 18 I can't even count how many places I have lived. The security of knowing your home is there and will be yours for a long period of time would be really nice. I crave stability as you do, as I have never really known it. But focus on the good. You DO have your house. It is your and you are living there. Enjoy it the best you can instead of holding onto fear of losing it. It's kind of like a relationship. Having a good relationship but fearing something is going to go wrong and you are going to lose it all the time doesn't allow you to enjoy it. Enjoy your home.
You are driven, quite brilliant at what you do, and I am sure your own business is going to prosper and you can take comfort in that.
Hang in there buddy. This is always a good place to come back to:)
