Well DBers, progress today. I took little guy into preschool, and he seemed at home. As I drove into work I thought about WW once. "Wonder why she hasn't called yet?" because it's turned into a habit. Then heard them talk about the All Star Game on the radio and I didn't think about her again until I got to work. As I got my stuff situated, clocked in got a drink, etc WW texted me 4 times and called once. She actually used my name for the first time since she left and said she was worried. Once I sat down I finally saw my phone, and told her he was fine and doing well. That when I asked "Are you ready for school?" He answered by saying ready for school and friends. That's huge for him. She said she was crying, but I just kept to the subject of S.
She wanted to talk a little bit longer, but I said I'm really busy and needed to get to work. (Half true.) She said thank you for talking and have a good day, I was working and didn't answer. Around noon she texts again asking about his day, but also mentions her day as well. I wait until I'm done with my work, and tell her he's doing well and is at lunch but don't comment on her day. (It was commentary on her day, not necessarily discussion.)
It's hard, trying NC Parenting Edition. I want to really reassure her about stuff because I know she's a worrier. This is more like the real Mommy I know. The past 6 months, she had become so blaise about things. Mommy when it's convenient and whatnot. I just know I need to keep it to S, and keep things to a low roar.
I can keep this up. The "good" thing is, for a while she'll have him on weekends and that's my tougher time re contact. I'm thinking about trying out the gym to get in better shape. Maybe start at one day a week? Anyway, I need to look into it. Left a message for an IC today, she should call me back by tomorrow AM.
Me: 35 W: 32 S: 4 T: 6 M: 4 Physical Separation official: 5/21 Currently: DR/DBing, Focusing on me and son
Cheating on a good person is like throwing away a diamond and picking up a rock.