He was and is a damaged survivor of incest with emotionally stunted parents and was over three fifty pounds. I saw the real guy.
Buxom,
My wife is a survivor of early childhood sexual abuse by a caretaker. The more I learn, the more I believe that, even after extensive therapy, childhood sexual abuse is a ticking time bomb. My wife has lot of wonderful qualities and, like you, I saw the real woman, but unfortunately the abuse taints everything. I feel for you.