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I have not posted anything here in a few days.

A few things have happened in my life since I posted. This past Friday I went out with another group I joined through Meetup. I had a wonderful time and talked to a lot of interesting people. I hated when we had to leave. We have another outing this Friday and I'm really looking forward to it.

The weekend came and went. I didn’t really do much except yard ward. It’s the time of year when I can easily mow my yard every 4 days, but I only do it on Saturday morning because it’s too hot to do it after I get off work. I really didn’t miss my wife too much. I last contacted her on 6 July and that was through text and it was only to invite her for lunch this week. I think knowing I was going to see her in a few days put my mind at ease.

My D finally saw my W Sunday. She hadn't seen her mother in over two months as well. They met at my W’s BF’s place of business. My D brought her puppy for my W to see. My W fell in love with the dog. Their time together lasted about an hour. My D said they didn’t talk about me. I was happy about that because I wanted their time together to be about them and not me and my W.

Well, yesterday I finally got to see and talk to my W for the first time in over two months. I promised her I would only meet as friends and nothing more. I wanted to put her mind at ease so she would agree to meet with me. The first 30 minutes or so we had a great time together. I let her talk about her job and whenever she asked about me I would answer as little as possible and steered the conversation back to her. Her job pays so little but she loves what she is doing.

She then threw me a softball question that I could see from a mile away and I still swung and missed big time. She innocently asked if you could ask me one question. Like I said, I knew it was a loaded question and I should have declined but the primitive part of my brain wanted to know what she was thinking. She asked me how I paid for my L. My D had told me my W thought I took money from my 401k to pay off some bills and hire the L. I should have been vague with my answer but I couldn’t stop from telling her I borrowed money to pay for my L. She then started on how the summons was so harsh and mean. I explained the summons is a generic worded document and there isn’t a lot of items that were directed at her. She kind of rolled her eyes at me and said, “You DEMAND everything returned at once! That doesn’t sound like generic to me.” I told her I understood but I was scared and I was in a deep fog and I couldn’t think clearly.

By now the waterworks were in full overdrive as she told me how she felt in the last few years of our marriage. I tried to validate as best I could but I was overwhelmed with emotions. I did keep a calm head and she finally calmed down. After the meal we walked outside and we hugged each other and left on good terms.

There was a lot more to the meeting than that. I will write it down in another post.